Hello, mindsay.

 You are...(looks)

[x] Tall
[ ] In between
[ ] Short
[ ] Blonde
[ ] Redhead
[x] Brunette
[ ] Black
[ ] Blue-eyed
[x] Brown-eyed
[ ] Green-eyed
[ ] Hazel eyed
[ ] Gold eyed
[ ] Grey eyed
[ ] Yellow eyed
[x] Glasses
[ ] contacts
[ ] Change colors
[ ] Braces
[ ] Freckles
[ ] Piercings
[ ] Tattoos
[x] Long hair
[ ] Short hair
[ ] Med. Hair

Your nationality includes...
[ ] Philipino
[ ] Indian
[ ] Taiwanese
[ ] Japanese
[ ] Hispanic
[ ] Nicoya
[ ] Puerto rican
[ ] Chicana
[ ] Italian
[x] Scottish
[ ] Chinese
[x] Dutch
[ ] French
[x] German
[x] Irish
[x] Greek
[ ] Portuguese
[ ] Swiss
[ ] Polish
[ ] korean
[ ] Jamacian
[ ] Canadian
[ ] Lithuanian
[ ] Native American
[ ] Russian
[ ] Ukrainian
[ ] British
[ ] African American
[ ] Scandanavian
[ ] Mexican
[ ] Cape Verdean
[ ] Welsh
[ ] Maltese
[ ] Belgiam
[x] English

Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] Red
[ ] Pink
[ ] Yellow
[x] Black
[x] Green
[ ] Blue
[ ] White
[ ] Silver
[ ] Purple
[ ] grey
[x] Orange

Your personality is sometimes...
[ ] annoying
[ ] talkative
[x] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[ ] bubbly
[x] spazzy
[ ] fun loving
[x] laid back
[ ] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird.

The music you like is?
[x] rap
[x] rock
[ ] pop
[ ] country
[x] hip hop
[ ] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[x] classical
[x] indie
[x] techno
[x] oldies
[x] the 80s
[ ] punk
[x] Metal
[x] reggae
[x] Goth
[ ] Latin
[ ] emo
[x] other

The pets you have are?
[x] cat
[x] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] rabbit
[x] fish
[ ] Bird
[ ] other
[ ] none

Clothes you like to wear are?
[x] plain tshirts
[ ] sweatshirts
[ ] stockings
[ ] high heels
[x] boots
[x] sneakers
[x] jeans
[ ] pj pants
[x] boxers
[ ] underwear
[x] dress shirts
[ ] dresses
[ ] mini skirts
[ ] polos
[ ] med. skirts
[ ] long skirts
[x] watches
[x] necklace/chain
[ ] hoop earrings
[ ] toe socks
[x] flip flops
[ ] halter tops
[ ] stilletos
[ ] shorts
[ ] sunglasses

How do you like to wear your hair?
[ ] down & straight
[ ] ponytail
[ ] pigtails
[ ] messy bun
[ ] half ponytail
[ ] scrunched/curly
[ ] bun
[ ] crimped
[ ] with a bandana
[ ] French braids
[ ] cornrows
[ ] Gel
[ ] hat
[ ] messy hot hair
[ ] mohawk
[x] just let it be curly and hang

You're mostly labeled as?
[x] goth
[x] geek
[ ] emo
[ ] prep
[ ] punk
[x] hippie
[x] nerd
[ ] ditzy
[ ] hyper
[ ] happy....
[x] gangsta
[x] drug dealer
[ ] athlete
[x] other

You eat?
[ ] dessert every night
[ ] diet stuff
[ ] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[x] a lot of carbs
[x] some meat
[ ] salad
[x]seafood

A typical friday night...
[ ] mall with your friends
[ ] partying
[x] watching movies
[ ] going to the club/pub
[x] staying home
[x] gettin money on the grind
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] working while your friends are out having fun
[x] My friday nights aren't typical. I don't really have a routine. cept get high and money
[ ] skate and hang out w/ gf/bf
[ ] church

Currently you are...
[x] in a relationship
[ ] single
[ ] crushing
[ ] single and looking for someone
[ ] just broke up... and so sad about it

Online, you use:
[ ] lol
[ ]sup
[ ] =D
[x]lmao
[ ]stfu
[ ] ty
[ ] jk
[ ]ttyl
[x] g2g
[ ] ^^
[ ] T_T
[ ] x_x
[x] ^_^
[ ] ^///^

Did you like this survey?
[ ] yeah
[ ] no!
[ ] it was ok
[x] it was something to do

WARNING: Extremely flammable.  Liquid and vapors may ignite.  Do not use when smoking.  Do not use or store near fire, flame or heat.  Keep out of eyes.  In case of contact, immediately flush eyes with water, remove any contact lenses and continue to flush eyes with water for at least 15 minutes.  Contact physician.  Harmful if ingested.  In case of accidental ingestion, give fluids liberally and consult with local POISON CONTROL CENTER.  Harmful to synthetic fabrics, wood finishes and plastics.  Keep out of reach of children.

Wow.  This stuff is like satan in a bottle.

I'm back from my long journey, but I'm now plus a pack of cigarettes, an 8-ounce bottle of dextromethorphan, and one copy of Splinter Cell for xbox.  I'm minus $17... :(

SPLINTER CELL TIME.

Uh... emoetry wanted her friends to post this link for some reason.  Click away?

http://s9.invisionfree.com/The_Path_to_Paradise/index.php?act=idx

Just set up an account for the love of my life.  You can check out my handiwork at formositas .  Enjoy.

Oh, I need to start my dosing soon, otherwise I'll be up far too late.  I have to be at work by 8 tomorrow morning... :(

hey guys im just chekcing into see whatsgo ing on.

how are you all?

CIBO MATTO IS FUCKING AWESOME.

DOWNLOAD THSES SONGGSNOW

Spoon

Marijuana

Beef Jerky

Birthday Cake

                                              Sorry, still high

Wow, the first few hours of work were quite difficult.  Not only was I dead tired, but I was walking very robotically for a bit.  I was supposed to leave at 3, but I remembered I left my keys at home.  Nobody was home to let me in, and I didn't feel like commiting a break-in in broad daylight, so I clocked out and stayed at work.  Slept came easy in the breakroom.

Finally, I called and my brother was home, so I walked on over.

Tomorrow, I have to be in at 6:30am.  Truck day.  Ultra-shitty.  The thing is, I'm invited to a party tonight.  My friends can pick me up at 1am.  I don't know what to do.  I just want to sleep... maybe that'll make things better.

Waiting for 9 o'clock so I can call my girl.  She's at the prom with her friend Patty.

Living in Maryland sucks.

Work was fun today for some odd reason, even though I had to be there by 6:30am.  Maybe it's on account of the three red bulls I drank.  This old dude came in and I offered to help him find what he was looking for, but he was utterly heartbroken to see that we were out of printer paper.  I ran off and scoured the entire stockroom for some, then finally found the last pack and brought it to him.  He was really happy about it and told my manager what an awesome employee I am, so Steven (my manager) bought me my lunch for the day.  See what a fantastic human being I can be?

Hmm... what else?  Oh.  Just found out that my friend Katie is friendship-cheating on me by hanging out with this asshole clone of me.  I hate that bastard.  He stole everything from me.  My sexy looks, my... well that's about it.  Other than looking like me, he's a shithead.  Peace.

It's early.  I've been up since 4:30.  My internet was down last night, and I ended up passing out around 11:00 after calling my girlfriend only to not receive an answer.

So, I wake up at 4:30 and my first impulse is to call her, so I do.  I find out she's been hanging out with her slut friend again for hours.  Apparently, there was some party at the beach and everyone was getting drunk.  My girlfriend had the privilege of driving everyone home.  So now, she's stranded a town over from hers until 9:00, because Nicole (the alcoholic whore who made her sneak out in the first place) is sleeping.  What a good friend, huh?  Willa isn't allowed out at all... much less to be out partying all night and coming back at 9:00 the next day.  It's like she's trying to get in trouble.  I don't know if I even want her to come on the 30th.  I don't know who she is anymore, and I don't like it.

 I'm sick of everyone from New York.  They're all losers and users.

Lyrics to a song which must be downloaded.  Now.  What are you waiting for? Go.

Portishead - "Seven Months"

How can I forget you
Disregard how I feel
Silently listen
To the words I can't see

For as long as I have tried
And as low as I can be
I will never resign myself
From the trial I seek

Why should I forgive you
After all that I've seen
Quietly whisper
When my heart wants to scream

For as long as I have tried
And as low as I can be
I will never resign myself
From the trial I seek

There's no time to rest
Or to reconsider
For this cruel unsaid, won't concede

For as long as I have tried
And as low as I can be
I will never resign myself
From the trial I seek

It's been 500 days since February 13th, 2004.  Just thought you'd like to know.

I'm sorry Willa.  I love you.

I don't know why I'm the way I am.  I don't know why I obsess over you.  I wish you still obsessed over me.

I'm awake!  Praise be to Allah and Yu Yevon.  ....who is Yu Yevon, you ask?  I don't recall, but praise be to him anyways.

My body is super sore, and my brain feels numb.  Gotta be at work by 3 :(.  Anyone feel like calling in sick for me?

I could never possibly overstate my love for the Smiths.  Quite possibly the best band ever.

Currently playing: "Rubber Ring".  Anyone else a fan of theirs?

I'm so tired and hungry.  There's nothing to eat in the house.

Late in the evening.

Willa is out again, so

I am quite upset.

^- Haiku.

So... there's nothing to do.  I'm so bored.  They say that if you're bored often, you're a boring person.  Is that true?  I'd hate to be considered boring.  I know my blog is often filled with useless mediocricy, but I don't really know how to write about things that are too interesting.  Things in my head.  Maybe I'm afraid someone will know me.  Maybe I'm afraid someone will steal my thoughts.  Maybe I'm just plain afraid.

Okay, maybe I'll give it a go.

I was thinking today about long distance relationships.  The simple statement is that they suck.  The complex statement is that you may love a person, but unless you can spend every waking minute in their presence, you don't truly know if they love you.  Long distance relationships bring out the worst in people.  Jealousy, greed, mistrust.  All of these negative emotions are magnified.  There's no physical comfort you can receive.  No hug.  No kiss.  No sex.  That physical aspect of a relationship makes everything negative go away.  I love my girlfriend so much, but I'm finding it harder and harder to be away from her.  Her lack of physical presence hurts me more and more each day.  Especially on nights like this.  Nights where she's out, removing our verbal contact to some extent.  Yes, I call her and she talks to me for a bit, but the truth is that she's out with her friends.  I understand it.  My rational side does, at least.  My rational side tells me that if she's out with friends, I shouldn't be the center of her attention.  But I lose this side when we're talking on the phone and she's ignoring me, or has to hang up because her friends are calling her over.  I don't know what to do with myself.

She won't be home until 5am.  I have to be up by 7.

I'm pissed-off to the max, and again I'm questioning everything.  I want to be her everything, and she treated me like I was until the past few weeks.  I want that whore Nicole to die.  She's the one making Willa do these things.  She's the one tearing us apart.  Willa would choose Nicole over me.  What does that say?  Anyone... please... I need help.

It's morning.  I slept a healthy three hours or so.

I was awakened by a ringing phone.  I picked it up and it was Willa.  It wasn't really the type of conversation I was expecting, but at least it was something, right?  She wanted me to help fix her brother's computer becuase I'm usually the go-to guy for junk like that. Let's see... blah blah blah.  Then I went out back to smoke a cigarette and had a 15-minute conversation with my Jamaican neighbor.  I find that man hilarious.  He's sitting there, telling me his life story and telling me about his jobs and what not while he's smoking a bong right off his back porch.

I love Gaithersburg.

Willa arrived today.

I forgot what it was like to be happy.  It feels like it's been forever.  I've waited so long to hold her in my arms.  Sorry this is a short post, I'll elaborate sometime tomorrow, because I've gotta be up by 6:00am.  Lets see, what else?  OH YEAH!  Bought "Demon Days" today.  Gorillaz is still fucking genius.  Buy the album.  Now.

Definitely worth not pirating.

What a fantastic week.  I've actually had fun for the first time in a while, and it wasn't related to drugs and/or video games.  Well... maybe both were involved... but still, they weren't needed.  I have spent pretty much every day since Willa arrived over at Katie's house, where she was staying.  Katie was funnier than usual.  Maybe it's just that I haven't realized it as I don't spend a lot of time with her.  But I do believe she's my only real friend, aside from Willa of course.

I'm pretty upset that Willa left today.  We held each other by the door of the Greyhound bus for what seemed like an eternity.  It was a sad truth.  Things can never be the way they were this week forever.  When we both move out, things are going to be hard.  There won't be time to fuck around doing whatever.  It's going to strictly be a balance of work and school.  Oh great, a happy post turns into a sad one. Hmm... I can probably turn that around.

Oh damn, cat knocked over my soda.  I swear, my cat thinks he's so bad ass.  He comes up in my room talking all this shit about how he's got bigger "ups" than me and that he's a "mean street balla", but when it comes time to throw down, he wimps out like a little bitch.  He's only ever gotten one good hit on me, but that was cheap.  Bastard racked me in the balls, but I ended up punching his nose and insulting his mom.  Comment on that post, bitches.  Good day.

The Faint - "Paranoiattack"

The news has got me paranoid,
papers and the news reports,
casualties of every war,
the anchor people keeping score.
The weapons now are chemicals,
in water and in air above,
in circulating envelopes,
in powder through the postal routes.

The threat of a disease is here,
we nipped it once without a cure.
It took forever ‘til it stopped,
through mandatory needle shots.
They gave us all a little dose,
to teach our bodies how to cope,
finally when we had it licked,
some terrorists are back with it.

The propaganda's working now,
I’m falling for it hook and reel,
I’m stocking up on medicine,
buying tape to seal us off in paranoia.

Paranoia (x11)

Paranoiattack,
paranoiawar,
paranoia sinks like a bomb.

Paranoiathreat,
paranoiaffects,
paranoia drops bombs.

Bombs

Paranoia

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Read the comments and be awesome.

Hello, mindsay.

My room is in shambles.  Xbox games, pillows, newspaper clippings, dollar bills, and clothes have all but completely covered my floor.  It's also at least 88 degrees in here.  I've gotta remember to shut off my xbox and pc before I go to sleep.  Today is going to be an odd one.  I've first gotta take a shower.  Then I'm headed to the MVA to renew my permit and schedule a test for next week.  Afterwards, I've got some funky-ass hours at work.  12-8?  That eats up the rest of my day.

Anyways, I pose another question:  ska or reggae?

Ey yo.  Guess who's back in da hiz-ouse?!?!

It warmed my heart to read those beautifully touching comments.  May God bless you all.

Ugh... I feel sick... too much pizza...

The battleground is a corn field in Ohio, circa 1970.

John Lennon is armed with a katana.  Paul McCartney has a bo staff.

Who wins?

Montgomery College - Rockville Campus

07-11-05 through 8-17-05 Monday-Thursday

10:45 - 12:25

Room: SE 227

I don't feel like going to school.  10:45 is so damn early for me, and I've gotta take a bus to get there.  Well, I guess I have to shower and what not.  :(  Peace out?

People piss me off. 

1. My math professor is a ho-bag.
2. The Ride-On bus driver was bitching at me for bringing a drink on the bus.
3. My girlfriend failed chemistry, and refuses to attend summer school.
4. I have to go to work soon.
5. Crack cocaine is destroying our communities.

ME GO WORK NOW

KTHXBAI

Q: Why am I still awake when I have to be awake by 7am, and I have to work 3-10?

A: Because Willa is out late again.  I'm waiting to be able to talk to her.

Q: What's wrong with me?

A: I don't know.  I'm just upset when she does this to me.

Q: Why does she do this?

A: Ask her.  formositas 

I'm at school.  I have no idea how I'm going to make it today.  Whenever I blink, I start to nod off for a moment or two.  I bought a mountain dew code red.  Maybe that'll keep me up, but I haven't had a decent night's rest for a while now, and it's taking its toll.

What's the good news?  I bought my textbook today.  (Bad news: it was $83.33) I also managed to get all my homework done.  40-something equations in 30 minutes isn't too bad, is it?  What else?  Oh, I think Willa's pissed at me.  That's bad news though.  Don't mind my ramblings, I just can't get my thoughts together properly.

I almost burned myself again last night, but a phone call from a friend helped me out.

I'm just a miserable mess.

I guess I should be leaving the library and heading for class now.  I really need a smoke first, though.  I need to wake the fuck up.  Maybe if someone jumped out from around a corner and socked me in the gut, I'd wake up... any takers?  Didn't think so, bitches.

I need awesome people to play against in live.  If you have an xbox live account, reply to this, or add me.

Gamertag: RobotPerfection

I'm such a loser.

My plans for the night:

1. Talk to Willa when she gets home
2. Read some of my recently purchased book, Still Life with Crows.
3. Sleep.  Peacefully.

I don't know why this is so damn addictive.

I've seen it about 75 times today.

And the double-you tee eff moment of the week is.....

What the frugal?!

I'm not.  I swear it.  I was just listening to "A Day in the Life" by the Beatles.

I haven't been in such a happy mood in the longest time. I was sitting and remembering.  I remembered summers from long ago.  I remembered my girlfriend and thought about all the experiences we've had together.  It's hard for me to imagine what my life would be like without her.  I wonder if I'd be alive at all.  I feel so great.  It's difficult to convey the happiness that fills me at this exact moment.  This song triggers something inside me.  Anyone who has never heard it, I suggest you get Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club band and give the last track a listen.  It's beautiful.

I just thought you'd like to know that.

"Smoking By Pregnant Women May Result in Fetal Injury, Premature Birth, And Low Birth Weight."

So I guess we know what to do if fascists take over the world... or there's always the classic "fall down a flight of stairs"... But at least you look and feel cool whilst smoking. ^_^

 Minor Threat - "In My Eyes"

You tell me you like the taste
You just need an excuse
You tell me it calms your nerves
You just think it looks cool
You tell me you want to be different
You just change for the same
You tell me it's only natural
You just need the proof
Did you fucking get it?

It's in my eyes
And it doesn't look that way to me
In my eyes

You tell me that nothing matters
You're just fucking scared
You tell me that I'm better
You just hate yourself
You tell me that you like her
You just wish you did
You tell me that I make no difference
At least I'm fuckin' trying
What the fuck have you done?

It's in my eyes
And it doesn't look that way to me
In my eyes

Educate yourself, foo.

[GAH!]

Hey.  Where the hell have I been?  Wasted in an alley for a few months.  Merry christmas, fuckers.

Oh, I'm in Athens, Greece right now, by the way.